The more games become my job, the less I play.

I wanted to play Uncharted 4 today and didn’t.

I might still, the day isn’t over yet, but I probably won’t. I’m recording Uncharted 4 for the channel right now. It’s my first time through, I’d probably have finished it by now, but I’m clearing an hour at a time, chapter by chapter because I’m doing it for the channel. Playing Uncharted 4 means getting out the little PVR Rocket, clearing the USB stick, turning of the PS4’s HDCP protection so I can get a picture etc. etc. etc.

I’m loving Uncharted 4. It might be my favourite entry in a series I love, but playing it for the channel is so different to just sticking it on and vegetating to Nathan Drake’s dreamy blue eyes. Commentating, making sure the footage is still recording, making sure I sound clear; it’s all work. Not very hard work, but work all the same. Playing a game I love for a few hours leaves me feeling refreshed and relaxed, recording leaves me drained.

Don’t get me wrong, I love it, and I love running the Youtube channel, but it’s strange how easily your hobby becomes your work. I try to hit three big streams or uploads per day, once that’s done, who wants to spend more time staring at a screen? Playing for fun takes place strictly between sessions of playing for serious, which is still fun, but not as fun as the other kind of fun play that I mentioned before.

It’s a good thing in a way. I set up the channel in the first place because I was spending too much money on games that were either consuming all my time so nothing really got done, or sitting on shelves unplayed. By making my hobby my work, I’ve really turned my life around, but I sort of lost my hobby in the process. I’ve had to actively pursue other hobbies. Netflix is a blessing. But youtube isn’t the sort of job that lends itself well to this kind of life. I find myself perpetually in the mindset of the self employed. If I have time to watch three episodes of A Series of Unfortunate Events, I probably had time to log in and stream a bit of Minecraft, if I can kick back and waste time brushing my teeth, surely I could be answering a few silly little YT comments.

Working with games has made me a workaholic…

Well, except for the money.

And it’s not like I can kick the hobby completely, enjoy games only in my little circle of work and learn to love Films instead. I need to be up to date, even my outdated little channel needs a new game every now and then. Even I need to be up on the conversation, Nintendo Switches and Playstation Pros.

It’s not really a complaint, I love what I do. I want to do it for the rest of my life. I’d like to say one day that entertaining people pays the rent. I sit and I think about that and really, truly, genuinely, and uniquely sit back and think ‘there’s a job I’d feel satisfied to do’ and yet the deeper down this rabbit hole I get, the less I play. I spend time with games, sure… I have the controller in my hand for no less than five hours most days, but play?

I might never play again.

Here’s what’s going on with the blog.

Woo, first post in a while… how many blog updates start with that. There’s a reason… read on and trust me.

So last time I updated this blog I was just starting an exciting new project to review all the Spider-Man issues, I was reviewing games, posts were regular, life was good. Then I stopped and all content died for about a month, the blog looks all different, and all the pictures are gone now.

Blame my web hosting. Basically I found out my web hosting was coming up for renewal, and I just couldn’t budget for a third year with the same host. If you’ve never paid web hosting before, they all follow the same format, the first year is ridiculously cheap and then it gets progressively more expensive with each passing year. The rely on the fact that most people don’t feel confident enough to move from one host to another once the site is set up to avoid people shopping around. Truth is, if I could afford it, I’d have stuck too but I just couldn’t. It was move, or kill the site.

With that in mind, as soon as I knew I was moving the hosting I pretty much dropped updates because I had no guarantee I could actually move all the content over, (this was all new for me) and it’s hard to really put in good work when you might be torching the whole place in a week or two.

As you can see, the blog is still here. Pictures are done, but the written content is all still alive and well, and updates are coming soon. I still need to tweak the settings and get the place looking nice but we have a safe home for the next 12 months here. When the 12 months is up, we might be moving again, but we’ll cross that bridge when we come to in.

This whole thing has raised the usual questions about if I should even have a blog or not when most of the work I do these days is video production on Youtube or seen through Facebook, but I still like having a place to put my written thoughts down. I’d like to get back to using this place regularly, and now Christmas is over I’m going to try make that happen.

I’m paid up for another year, Blogosphere. Let’s hope we have a bright future ahead.